While watching a TV show called “Memories” I think of what a therapist once told us, the father of our son and I. He said, “in a few years you’ll most likely look back at a situation like this and wonder what all the fuss was about. Was it really worth ruining things?” The TV […]
moreAt night, I stand on a mountain under a sky dizzy with stars. I realize I can never look at stars again without hearing my son’s voice. A voice alive with curiosity. Mama, he says. Do shooting stars exist or are they make believe? They exist, I say. If I ever see one, I’ll wish […]
moreTwo friends promise each other eternal friendship. They go through life’s highs and lows together. As years progress, there are more lows than highs. One friend always feels she needs to help the other. Until the one who is helped decides it should stop. She no longer returns calls, she no longer writes. The one […]
moreA friend reminded me of something today. It was in relation to my son’s ear infection. I told her how his ear had been so painful that nothing helped. He screamed all the way to the doctor’s office in the middle of the night, and during the wait, and during the doctor’s checkup, and after. […]
moreThere once was a lady, of middle age, who woke up in the mornings alone. When she wasn’t alone, she loved being it. She particularly loved a morning alone when granted. To have her first thoughts belong to herself, as opposed to the other: The child, the husband, the lover. Oh how she longed for […]
moreTwo women cross the same street, on the same intersection, each in opposite directions. They meet midway and stop to talk. They know each other but clearly not all too well. They are distanced, while closed in by the cars that race by, left and right, trams and bicycles and trucks and buses rage on. […]
moreIn a different life, it feels, I felt myself becoming sick. And sicker. I was so tired that I could not lift my arms. A friend would have to wash my hair for me. O It turned out my arms were paralyzed due to a lyme infection. I remember the day my GP told me […]
moreOutside the department store, two girls discuss what else they’re going to buy. They are at that age between child and adolescent, when bodies have suddenly grown boobs, shoulders are slumped, hair is greasy and faces are pale. Their eyes turn inward as opposed to nd away. One of them says, “we both bought the […]
moreDo you remember the child you once were. Is there a piece of it there. Inside you somewhere. Think of it, sit with it, close your eyes and feel it. Its arms around your neck. Is it fair, I wonder. I wonder is it fair to claim it was free. No care in the world. […]
moreThere is this little girl who can hardly sleep, that’s how much she desires the walking-talking-doll she saw on a commercial. At night, she thinks of how she’ll take the doll to the park, discuss how she hates spinach and wishes she was old enough to wear high heels. She is saving up for the […]
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