I asked some people over. All evening, I felt something was missing. This void floated on a yearning and kept me up all night. Eating, drinking, smoking, talking, dancing, laughing. Eating more, drinking more, until birds started singing and it was time to sleep. These same people have often advised me to think less than […]
more“Neutral,” said my osteopath, “I maintain neutrality while treating you.” He was referring to how I laid on his table, in undies, my eyes closed. He was doing something to the membranes around my skull. It’s hard to say what exactly, but there was a solemn intensity to it. He said that sometimes, he looks […]
moreOnce upon a time, I lost my voice. I couldn’t speak for a year or two. It wasn’t an easy predicament to be in considering I was a lawyer at the time. During those years of distress, a friend asked: “have you hit rock-bottom yet?” It had me wondering how you know if you’ve hit […]
moreI sit next to a dancer in the darkness. She is my teacher and we see each other every week. But how well do we know each other? What do our bodies reveal in movement, gestures? In the vulnerable act of trying something you aren’t sure you can do. We are at a ballet performance, […]
moreA new table, perfectly polished, unspoiled. Its wood is soft and warm and welcoming. With nothing on it, not even a pen or a set of keys. You feel foolish for telling a friend to be careful. But when you next look, there is a scratch. It is a small scratch, barely noticeable from a […]
moreI stood at a crossroad sipping my latte, a guilty pleasure of mine, waiting for the light to jump on green. A guy on a motorbike was waiting too. I smiled due to a second guilty pleasure – the fantasy of hopping on the back of that old-timer B&W, holding on to the athletic waist, […]
moreWhile watching a TV show called “Memories” I think of what a therapist once told us, the father of our son and I. He said, “in a few years you’ll most likely look back at a situation like this and wonder what all the fuss was about. Was it really worth ruining things?” The TV […]
moreAt night, I stand on a mountain under a sky dizzy with stars. I realize I can never look at stars again without hearing my son’s voice. A voice alive with curiosity. Mama, he says. Do shooting stars exist or are they make believe? They exist, I say. If I ever see one, I’ll wish […]
moreTwo friends promise each other eternal friendship. They go through life’s highs and lows together. As years progress, there are more lows than highs. One friend always feels she needs to help the other. Until the one who is helped decides it should stop. She no longer returns calls, she no longer writes. The one […]
moreA friend reminded me of something today. It was in relation to my son’s ear infection. I told her how his ear had been so painful that nothing helped. He screamed all the way to the doctor’s office in the middle of the night, and during the wait, and during the doctor’s checkup, and after. […]
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